I’ve always been sociable, always
been surrounded with a lot of people. I easily make friends and perennial go-to-girl
by a lot of my friends. I am reiterating these to say that boredom hardly
strikes me or even loneliness.
But recently, my best friend relocated to
another city, and my fiancée was away, and even the usual chat of family
members and friends cannot chase the blues away.
For the first time in a long
while, I felt lost. I didn’t like it. I was weepy, and feeling clingy and a bit
hopeless. These were all what I was feeling and I felt powerless. And I looked
for a panacea. But nothing seems to work. I tried talking to other people and
tried to convince myself it is ok that I do not talk to my usual ones, but if
you want an honest answer, no dice.
I realized that though I have a
lot of friends, I have a select number of people I truly trust. Those I can
show my soul, and still in all confidence know that nothing will change. That
in their eyes, I am the same ol’ me.
It takes certain kind of memories,
or moments or even years to have this kind of bonding. When you have this kind
of bonding, you are lucky. Sometimes, these are what is making us to hold on
and believe that life is beautiful no matter what.
You might wonder, did I ever come
out of the blues? Absolutely. The cure was the call from people I needed to talk
to.
You cannot fool yourself. If you
need to talk to specific people, do so. Not to do it is just delaying the
resolution of the blues.
