Blues Clue-Less

I’ve always been sociable, always been surrounded with a lot of people. I easily make friends and perennial go-to-girl by a lot of my friends. I am reiterating these to say that boredom hardly strikes me or even loneliness. 

But recently, my best friend relocated to another city, and my fiancée was away, and even the usual chat of family members and friends cannot chase the blues away.

For the first time in a long while, I felt lost. I didn’t like it. I was weepy, and feeling clingy and a bit hopeless. These were all what I was feeling and I felt powerless. And I looked for a panacea. But nothing seems to work. I tried talking to other people and tried to convince myself it is ok that I do not talk to my usual ones, but if you want an honest answer, no dice.

I realized that though I have a lot of friends, I have a select number of people I truly trust. Those I can show my soul, and still in all confidence know that nothing will change. That in their eyes, I am the same ol’ me.

It takes certain kind of memories, or moments or even years to have this kind of bonding. When you have this kind of bonding, you are lucky. Sometimes, these are what is making us to hold on and believe that life is beautiful no matter what.

You might wonder, did I ever come out of the blues? Absolutely. The cure was the call from people I needed to talk to. 

You cannot fool yourself. If you need to talk to specific people, do so. Not to do it is just delaying the resolution of the blues.